Sometimes.
April 14th, 2010
I know it’s probably all been a huge mistake to pour my heart out on the Internet. People develop strong opinions about you and your life when they really know nothing about you. But I don’t really care if people develop horrible opinions about me. I’m just trying to be insightful to those of you who do care and who are interested. Thank you for all your encouragement and prayers, they’ve all helped tremendously.
Tonight I shoot at a nightclub which’ll be fun but tiring work. I won’t be home until the early hours and I then have to be up again a few hours later to grab a tube into London to get a coach to Bournemouth. Because I can’t afford the £50 return train ticket, spending £8 on a coach seems the best way to go about it. Nathan will be at work in Poole which is the next door town and won’t be back until the evening. So I get to spend the day browsing the shops and seeing what it’s all about. I’m so excited. This will be our new home so soon and these past few days apart have been harder than last week. I can’t wait to be with my angel again. I need to get used to this and hang in for a little while more. I’m doing okay.
I took my first ECDL exam yesterday. I have to study 7 modules in 3 months or else I lose everything and am not allowed to continue! So getting one module done felt amazing. Though I was annoyed I got one question wrong so I only got 97%. Stupid, stupid, stupid mistake! 6 more modules to learn. I’m not even halfway through databases and I am finding them so hard to understand. My mind doesn’t work in logical ways.
On the other hand, I’ve been seriously busy with photo shoots. I did a shoot last Wednesday with some amazing girls in a plantation. They were for 2 magazines, so fingers crossed I did a good enough job. Then on Saturday I had a shoot for a book and exhibition a girl was putting together. It was so sunny and I’d managed to secure an amazing model from Europe’s largest agency. Boo-yah! And there everyone was saying I couldn’t do it.
I went out for tea with my Grandpa yesterday which was so, so lovely. He always cheers me up. He celebrated his 59th wedding anniversary with my Granny on Monday. That’s a lot of years! They’re the funniest couple, but I love them so much. I can’t think of life without them, they’ve always been my 2nd parents, the ones to hug me and encourage me through life. Anyway, my Grandpa told me all about how the Queen once dropped her ring at his feet and he picked it up for her and they laughed about it together. He always amazes me with his history. There’s so much I still have to learn about him and I fear my time is growing thin. I hope he’s around for many, many more years.
That’s life right now. So busy, but busy is good. It preoccupies the disturbed mind. Sorry for all the negativity lately for those of you who read this far! I promise to be more upbeat and blog more happy things from here on in. [: