Tired.
May 7th, 2009
Nothing much to report on today. Hmm.
I’ve found a new song to become slowly obsessed over. We heard it last night on Numb3rs as we were channel-flicking and now I can finally listen to it whenever I want. [:
I haven’t been feeling myself lately, and Nay’s been the biggest angel to help me find myself again. He’s kept me smiling and sane and always gives me hugs to let me know that I can be happy. I’ve been fighting some weird feeling for well over a week now, but it’s always lingering and I don’t want to let it win otherwise I’d just never bother to get out of bed in the morning. It just makes me realise how much I need Nathan to help me, especially in sad times. I have no decent reason to be sad, apart from a lot has gotten on top of me and he’s been nursing me back to the happy me. Like I always say, we always need somebody; whether it be family, friends or even just a stranger. Thank you Nathan for being my constant. I really am the luckiest girl alive.
We tearfully watched Lost this morning knowing it’s finale time next week. We’re not ready to say goodbye to season 5! I don’t want it to end, and neither does he. We’re lost without Lost. Don’t do this to us!
I’ve been chasing my prints for my exhibition and the company is just taking the absolute piss. They told me 5 working days to complete printing, mounting and couriering them to me. Today was day 5, so we called up to ask where on Earth they were because I need them by tomorrow! Turns out it takes 5 days to just do the mounting. I’ve already paid £200 for these prints and my Mum ended up paying an extra £15 to make sure they got here on Saturday. I bet they won’t even arrive on Saturday, they’re just such money grabbers. I haven’t seen the prints yet, I’m sure they’ll look fantastic, but I’m not impressed otherwise.
I’m just so tired of everything at the moment. I want to crawl away for a year and not wake up until everything is sorted out. I want all the problems to happen without us, I want to be care-free for a day. I want there to be a day where I’m not sad or heavy-hearted. I want there to be a day where we can just go crazy, and after Uni has finished, I’m going to make that day. I think we both deserve a little bit of time off, a little laugh and a day where we don’t have to worry constantly about everything! I thought that ever living together was a dream we’d never have, but now we’ve come this far; we just have to plough on. Now I just want to live this dream.
Sorry for the emotional diarrhea. I just felt like blogging and being partially deep for once. Peace out.