My Nay.
February 26th, 2009
Last night I had a really stuffy nose. Every time I was about to fall asleep, I’d realise my mouth was dry from breathing through it. I got so frustrated that I very nearly cried. Nathan sent me to sleep by stroking my arm and I couldn’t keep my eyes open any longer, blocked nose and all. Before he’d sent me off to sleep, he’d spent ages raiding the bedroom for something to help me as I muttered and cursed. This morning I woke up feeling really refreshed, and it felt brilliant. We ate Special K in the Sun and just had a good old laugh.
Today isn’t a special day, but I thought I may as well use it for something. This morning I reflected about the times Nathan and I weren’t physically together. Long distance relationships hurt a lot. They make you cry and they make you lay awake all night wishing you were somewhere else. They make you look at maps and constantly watch planes. They possess you. They will make you smile and they make you skip. They make you know that one day everything will work out. They make sure that once you are together, you’ll never take one another for granted. They make you strong. And they are amazing things.
A year ago, I never imagined we’d be where we are today. A year ago today, I had no clue that he would make me toast today and pick me up to spin me around. Nathan has only become more caring, more loving and more understanding. He’s become even more of my best friend and he is always my constant. I feel I owe it to him to let him know that I love him and appreciate everything he does. He works so hard and I know that as of late, he’s been swallowed by work. Don’t worry angel, I won’t let you drown, I’ll keep you afloat because I know you can do it. I believe in you.
Nathan, you’re amazing. You need to know. Awaken to the brilliance of your dreams, your hopes. Run on your inspiration. Jump in at the deep end. Realise what you need from errors. Find love in everything you do in your day. Trust your instint. Close your eyes and leap. Live like nothing’ll ever end. Just know one thing. Just remember one thing above all others. Know and remember that wherever you are, whatever you’re doing, I will always love you.
[I think we'll take the olbas oil home for tonight!]
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